"my world"

[Leesa]

ok, well, I dunno why, but I'm postin a poem I wrote two years back.
this is bout, the most happiest my poetry has ever been. well actually, this is the second happiest.
here goes.. I was really pissed off when I wrote this.

my world

welcome to my world, living with obsession
sit back, relax and enjoy my shit life of possession
I'm glad you've come here today
to live my life and feel what you say

you never realise how much you hurt me
when you criticise my words of being free
you never realise how low you made me feel
when you made my world feel so unreal

now that you're in my world of obsessions
youll finally see my situations
which has robbed me of my personality
and has gripped my life far from reality

sometimes I wonder who I really am
cause so far now my life feels like a sham
and I know that I'm so fucking obsessed with her
but you just making comments makes my life more of a blur

at times I don't know where I really belong
or if I can hang onto my life for long
but what I know is that I won't survive
cause nobody does really want me alive

listen to my voice echoing through the hall
every word I say has to be about the one you call whore
but I can't help that I'm so idiotic
and that all this shit makes me pyschotic

though it could help if you were there by my side
but it's too bad you're always tellin me some stupid lie
everytime I see you face
you turn away and walk at a faster pace

day after day when I open my mouth to talk
I know you wanna kill me with a fucking fork
to make me shut the hell up
or at pray ill go and never come back with a little bit a luck

trying to find someone who really understands is hard
since you have a damn knife in your soul forever jarred
even finding out who I am is murderous
and I'm so jealous cause everybody else is so vigorous

whenever I try to be what you call normal
you always still think I'm abnormal
and say I'm still that whore with a trashed mind
and think that I'm stupid, I can see it through being blind

remember when you told me no one cared
and that being sick of me is what everyone shared
and then when I was sad
I didnt want it but you ended up comforting me and felt bad

I remember when you were never there to hug me
when my personal goals were never achieved
all you did was assume I was in tears
cause not knowing her properly were my worst fears

it fucking hurts when you don't look at me properly
when you don't know who I am truly
I used to be your best friend
now it looks like our friendship has come to an end

look I'm tryin to get over all this
and I'm sealin it tightly with a kiss
but it's not my fault I have issues inside my head
and I'm sorry I'm not with you on the road ahead

so this is where it ends
defend yourself but don't pretend
you are now leaving my world, living with obsession
I hope you enjoyed my shit life of possession.

***

I know it dragged on and on and freekin on, but that was me two years ago tryin to put all my emotions I was experiencing at that moment into one poem..

[Erica]

that is really good leesa. kinda hits me at my point right now. it is really beautiful!

[Daisy]

leesa that really was beutiful it really jarred me too.
lol I could really feel that and it nearly made me cry lol

[neltado]

*hugs Leesa* so beautiful!

[Nikki]

Wow! Amazing stuff, man, you realy are talented!

it fucking hurts when you don't look at me properly
when you don't know who I am truly

Those lines really hit me in the gut + made me feel something - inspired stuff!

[Naz]

well I wrote this in english class like 5 years ago...*clear throat*

Why did u have to get angry
for a simple joke
I'm hungy
I want a coke


taraaa**


"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times
it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness
it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incedulity
it was the season of light, it was the season of darkness
it was the spring of hope, it was was the winter of dispair,
we had everything before us, we had nothing before us
we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going directly to the
other way in short,
the period was so far like the present period, that some of it noisiest
uthorities insisted on it's being received,
for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only

[Nikki]

That really moved me

[Naz]

my teacher loved it,well she laught at me, but she said it was ok

[andyboy]

dude that's was very upsetin.
when I was it ,it was like it was m.it was so made..


nelly

[masterdarth]

That was inspiring, really moving stuff.